Hmm..something new is learned every day. Last Friday was..strange..
I just learned that some people are cowards. Some people are selfish.
And some of those people actually matter to you.
Sad? A little. Disappointed? Maybe. Frustrated? Definitely.
Friday was a typical KL day.
Soggy, squishy, and jammed so badly that the stray dog walking by the road overtook the bus.
But was I emo 'cuz of thaT? Oh no, I was the happiest person on that gloomy bus actually.
I had someone with me. Not literally of course, but that doesn't matter nowadays with handphones anyway.
And so happy I was, that I smiled when everyone around me was growling at the crawl around them. So happy. My yellow shirt glowed 5ox brighter that day.
And then this happened: "hey i'll ttyl k? I'll msg u after my dinner!"
And so I replied, still grinning from ear-to-ear: "Alright!"
And thus I waited.
10pm came, 10pm left. She must still be having her dinner.
11pm came, 11pm left. "must be one hell of a dinner-party", I thought.
12am came, 12am left. Should I go to bed? Should I continue waiting?
1am came, 1am left. *goes up to bed and stares at the ceiling*
2am came, 2am left. *finally decides she forgot about me, decides to msg*
"Either you're still having dinner at 2am, or you forgot bout me. I'm disappointed."
The reply was: "i'm sori I "forgot", good night", in the most sarcastic tone one could muster.
And I was stunned. What? You didn't forget? Ok, but why the sarcasm? Why the hostility?
And was that even you writing that msg? ("sorry" was always written as "sowie", not "sori")
Sarcasm and hostility are usually reserved for someone who had done something wrong.
Confused, I then proceeded to call.
Surprise! A guy answered my call. A guy. GUY. I thought I had phoned the wrong number, and dialled again. Same thing. Some guy answered her handphone for her.
Then I remembered she had a friend staying over. Ok, I asked to speak to her. He answered, with a tone that had NO hint of sleepiness whatsoever, that she had fallen asleep.
I was confused. What was he doing, fully awake, when the person he had just been talking to was snoring besides him. Highly doubtful I was, that he was speaking the truth. It is NOT easy to talk to yourself.
And so I wondered. Was she really asleep? Why would she be avoiding me? Only cowards who are afraid to own up for their mistakes would hide.
And thus I had a sleepless night.
Next morning I woke up with the constitution of a drowsy zombie and headed for my SAT classes. I msg-ed, as it was still weighing on my mind, albeit less now that I'm not-so annoyed at her forgetting me.
"So why dincha msg last night?
"My friend forgot to tell me to msg you"
"Are you serious?"
"*no reply*"
WHAT THE FF...!!
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well ... u might not noe me ... let me intro myself fez ... im jason ... from utar PJ ... accidently got into ur profile in blogspots and i read ur latest post ... i juz would like to say ... itz definitely dissapointing not to get reply from the person ... well ... i think she hav the rights to handle her ownlife ... witout u getting into it ... unless she gav u the green light to do so ... she doesnt seems to msg u is juz becoz ... she dont want to ... well ... tats her choice ... u couldnt sound a gurl juz like dat ... itz definitely not gentleman at all ... pluz i juz dont think u hav the rites to go into her life witout her full permission to do so ...
i know its my fault tat i didnt sms u tat nite...and im really sorry bout it...but the thing is its not tat i forgot, its cuz i didnt want to...y u may ask??well, u said tat ur cool wif us being buddies but jz so u noe, the way ur treating me is so not as buddies...
u noe, u alwayz blame me 4making u emo but wat bout me???u think u never made me emo b4???but i dun say it out cuz it may hurt u but hey u said it to me like uncountable times dee rite???dun u think it hurts???and u said my fren was strange but truth is he was doing me a big favour and he's a great fren...i noe i lied and im truly sowee bout it but im real hurt tat u can post a blog openly bout it...
PS: u might as well jz write my name...not as if any1 doesn't noe who ur referring to...
jx27 and juztiff91,
I am his elder brother and i'm writing to respond to the both of u.
I dunno what happened between my brother and juztiff91 (or whatever her name may be). But i can tell my brother is not in the best of moods at the moment.
Juztiff91, let me ask u something. If u were in my bro's shoes..how would u feel? If u din want to msg back..why din u say so? Why hide behind someone? Why keep quiet? I know my brother since the day he was born 17 years ago and i'm damn sure my bro won't eat u up if u said u din wan to msg back.
jx27: i dunno who u are and as u said, my bro might not know u. So, can u please restrain ur mouth and stop making my brother feel sad? Ur an outsider and u have no right to intervene in matters pertaining to the both of them. The matter is between the both of them and let them settle it by themselves. Don't become a "batu api" and make my bro feel even more sad.
well ... me again here ... replying to dbcheam ... itz juz kinda impolite to post a blog and indirectly hurt the person's feeling ... like wud did juztiff91 written ... she is very hurt becoz of dis blog ... as u told juztiff91 dat she didnt think in the author's shoe ... but can i ask u a question ... did the author think in juztiff91's shoe b4 ?? basically the decision is still in juztiff91's hand ... i dont think we can demand anything from otherz if they dont want to ... no hard feelings ... juz my point of view
dbcheam,
i reali dun mean to hurt ur bro or even make him emo all the time...i've tried talking to him bout it n he understood it at that moment...but truth be told, it has no effect after a while...im more than flattered bout the way ur bro is treating me but at the same time i feel confined...i dunno how to explain it and im terribly sowee 4all the trouble i have caused ur bro n possibly u since u wrote this comment... from the bottom of my heart, i want ur bro and i to remain frenz...terribly sowee...
Quote: "i juz dont think u hav the rites to go into her life witout her full permission to do so"
Ok, here's my train of thoughts:-
1) I wait for the bus, get bored.
2) I decide to msg a few ppl.
3) Msg msg msg. Happy happy happy.
4) One of them leaves. Says she'll msg after dinner.
5) Ok, waits for her reply after her dinner.
Wait.
Wait.
wait.
Wait.
6) Reply doesn't come.
7) Msg-es her telling her how disappointed I feel.
8) Instead of an apology for making me wait, I get some sarcastic remark.
9) Confused, I proceed to call.
10) I get ignored.
11) I msg next morning.
12) I get ignored.
13) I get ignored again.
14) And again.
15) And I read the comments on my blog.
16) And what's this? I'm barging into her life?
Er, if you didn't want to msg you could have just said so..you didn't have to make me wait.
17) And what? I'm not treating you as a buddy? Can you point at the part which makes you feel as if I'm not treating u as a buddy? I don't think you can right? -.-"
i cant???!!!
wow...u have no idea wat u have been doing rite???
1) asking for HUGS???
2) calling me dear???
3) getting overly emo for me not replying ur sms???
i think i'll jz leave it there...3 is more than enough...
PS: maybe u do those 3things to ur other gal frenz oso...i dunno..but to me and im pretty sure most people, we dun take it as a "buddy" thing...
waaaa... sangat emo rite?
from a guy gurl thing come the brother to the rescue...
saya tak tau macam mana nak xpress jo. haha
bt i wana say juztiff91 didn msg him is wrong jo... bt dats oni one small part of mistake ...
if wat juztiff91 say is true den dat han urs is worse?? dats juztiff91 small mistake and dathan mistake is lyk few times more sakit hati kan? and it doesnt matter at all if juztiff91 has a guy beside her or dun hav... none of dathan buisness??? hope u guys bak to kawan-kawan... :)
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